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The Nature of Healing

11/21/2015

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So, I've been thinking a lot lately about bodies, illness, and healing.  I've been thinking about western medicine, alternative healing, and energy work.  Even though this is what I do, I still sometimes wonder when something happens to my body, which realm it falls in.  

It's funny, that I've come full circle with my own healing this year.  I began the year knowing that I had some emotional healing that was coming.  I knew it was big... I knew it would be intense... and I was ready.  What I didn't expect was the physical stuff that blew all that perceived control of the emotional wide open.  I cried more this year than in a long time.  I feared more this year than I have in a long time.

And I went to the doctor about the physical.  I was finally referred to the fifth doctor... who I liked and trusted.  But whatever is going on is mysterious.  She told me Friday that if this next thing we're trying doesn't address my issues, then she doesn't know what will.
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I came home and cried again.  I really want it to be "fixed".  But the ball is back in my court.  Yes, I'm doing what she suggested.   And I'll follow up with her in a month.  But I already know.  Nothing will change.

Unless.  Unless I give my body the chance to tell the truth... to call a spade a spade. Unless I hear this body... let her say the things that no one wants to hear... that honestly, I'm not sure I want to hear.  I don't want to revisit old crap... my life feels good right now... I just celebrated (truly) my fifteenth anniversary, my kids are healthy and wonderful, and things are just good.  


But, my body says it's time to deal with the things that need stability and love and wellness so that they can even begin to express what they've been holding.  I heard my body say that it's OK.  That I'm OK.  

I got clear that this physical stuff is only a mirror for me right now.  And I have to address the core of what's being reflected.  It will take time, and things will be fine.

And I want to be clear.  I believe that illness (or discomfort or disease) sometimes originates in the body and needs to be addressed in the medical system.  And sometimes it originates in the subtle realms of emotions, beliefs, and agreements. Sometimes those things are conscious, and sometimes not.  For me, right now, this thing... it's about healing the shames, the darknesses, the shadows. It's about reclaiming something of me that is rightfully mine.  And when I do, I believe my physical body will stop reacting.  I've done it before.  I see it with clients all the time. 

I live in this intersection of physical and subtle bodies... I love this intersection of physical and subtle realms... I am at home here.  It should come as no surprise that this is where my own healing is right now.
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rosemary scandale link
12/29/2015 11:52:28 pm

I am going through something similar. Thank you for sharing

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Heather Dakota link
12/30/2015 06:12:11 am

This is so beautiful and so wise! <3

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